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We all have photos of old rellies like this one.  My grandmother 2nd from the left, and her 3 sisters that she was very close to all her life.  I can say all her life, as she outlived every one of them, and 4 brothers and one baby, and her parents. Parents are part of the natural order, but you don't think of losing your brothers and sisters until you are very old, that is if you think about it at all.  At age 95, her last brother died and the final year of her life was very sad, she had outlasted them all in a race she didn't want to win.  She was an excellent athlete in her youth but this was a race that she didn't enter, and didn't think about until it was really too late.  Not that it would have changed anything, and with her  nature she would have voluntarily taken on the  mantle of grieving 7 siblings rather than have one of them do the same. This year, 2016, has seen most of the world suffer what she did.  Cumulative grieving.  It's an odd term, but it

Your mantra, repeated over and over, and always upheld by you in your life. Three years ago you left us all after finally finding something that could beat your spirit, and sadly it was your own health. The one thing we all take for granted, and the one thing we should never take for granted.  Without our health, our spirit falls and we can't get our head up to see the future.  Just what you went through three years ago.  To say we miss you, that our love has not decreased by even a minute amount is an understatement.  Every day you pop into our lives in some way to show us you are still nearby. The words though, they carry me onwards and upwards as you always used to say too.  When there are dark days, I just keep thinking I have to make up for the time you lost as well as what I want to achieve on my own as well.  There are so many things to do, so many good times to be had, and yet I still want to stop and just have quiet time on special days to remember, to dwell, to reg